get to it

I'm so upset that I couldn't be at the meeting with Obama today. i would honestly chew his ear off about the wasted money that we've had to suffer with over his presidency, and bush's. he's taken the messes he swore to clean up and swept them under a rug to rot. our government has allowed so much money to be wasted on confrontations and this joke of a program called the department of homeland security. with all that money uganda and the majority of the world would be free from famine they'd be able to drink clean water and have fertile soil from the wells. there would be vaccines to rid common diseases in third world countries. BUT NO we have to worry about terrorists attacking our country when we can't even control the crime on our streets. Why waste 100's of billions of dollars bailing out companies that ran themselves into the ground, when we can gain the trust of a nation that's in desperate need by giving them 100 million. I've honestly lost all respect for the political side of this country when they won't spend a single cent unless it's something that will benefit them. Yet when they do spend, they don't give nearly enough. the people who run our country want those who have nothing to give (mainly because they took our money and threw it down the toilet with the department of homeland security, whose annual budget is 52 billion, which proves my point about wasting valuable money) to give all they have to help, but continue to waste 52 BILLION DOLLARS a year on mindless shenanigans. This is common sense, drop the fearful charade. we have nations crying out for help, get to it.

well then

my heart breaks for those in Haiti at the moment, one day they're picking up debris, the next, they're left trying to survive. if they do survive, then theyll be spending their time regrouping, or rescuing. which leads me to wonder, what can I honestly do? I mean i can always pray, but my spirit longs for more. do i have to rip a door off it's hinge and float over there? i can't afford to go there and school just started, so that kills my hope for now. but all i can do is sit and wait until the Lord prompts me to go.................and the beat goes on

NEW NEW NEW

Hooray! This looking forward to all the new(s) that are coming into my life. New year, New decade, new pastimes. Everything is new to me, and hopefully it will continually be new. I'm finally starting classes for my radiology course. I've been waiting so long and now I finally get to stretch my brain lol. New life experiences are sure to come with this alone. I've found so many new inspirations this year. Influencing my writing, my pride, my love, my music, everything is going to be new new new. Never before seen, or heard of. I'm becoming impatient just waiting for all of this newness to explode and to overwhelm all the bland and typical things we're forced to witness. and take part of. So be ready for anything, because new LIFE is coming this way. An innumerable flow of new blessings, new beginnings , new love, are waiting in line waiting for your gates to open. Once the gates are opened, brace yourself, because the newness of God will make an impact.

............... yeah

Just a few funny things i've noticed over the last few weeks.

I've been tickled to no end about the way i've been confronted about many things lately. Whether it's one person being overly dramatic about me missing an alarm when they miss theirs every other week and I take the heat for it. Or if it's the same person putting my business out for a few to hear when the business is none of his nor theirs. Whether someone tells me it's immoral to visit my girlfriend, because she's away at college and I rarely get to see her. Or I need my spirit checked because I went to a different church. If you're seriously gonna be so judgmental over little things and throw the "experience" card at me, then please kindly PISS OFF. I have no time or energy to waste on your "holier than thou" bs that you call advice. If I seriously wanna throw everything away and waste away to nothing, I'll take your advice. But I seriously tend to improve, so ignoring you might be the best option, not only for me, but those who accidently stumble in your path. Because I pray that they have enough self-respect and wisdom to ignore any word that comes out of your mouth. Manipulation is the lowest form of deception, and you've seemed to master it. So don't be surprised if I roll my eyes at you when your mouth opens. Because I already know that whatever comes out will only be left to rot. It's not of God and your pride swells when your words are heard. So if you really wanna help me out, drop the kind charade you're pulling. Drop the judgment and SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!!!!!

First Comes Love

What a funny thing love is. It really does make you do the strangest things. Whether it makes you smile for no apparent reason, or brings you to tears when you realize how honest it truly is. Which brings me to so many questions, yet leads me to so many answers. Looking at my friends, I've always wondered when or how they knew that they found the one for them. The answer was obvious, because you could just see it written all over their faces. But after all the years of asking, and going to all the weddings. The only thing that matters is the love that they share. You see that, and you want that love all to yourself, so you either search and you search and you search, or you wait and you wait and you wait. Hoping that you'll find it, or that it'll sit next to you and grab your attention. And when you do find it, it brings out this new person that you've never known was within you. This different, better person. Who strives to be the best man, boyfriend, husband, lover, worker, father, the list goes on and on. When I found love, everything within me burned for that. And since that day, I've only made progress in life. I found work, I'm enrolled @ LC, I'm more sensible with finances, I'm about to get my license. Love has driven me to this point where all I can do is improve. My relationships, my whole life in general has changed so much. So whether you find love, or love tackles you from out of nowhere. EMBRACE IT. Because if love is in it's truest form, you will become BETTER than what you ever thought possible.

oops

This is for the one person who just had a great day turn to only good because he's an idiot. STOP BEING SO STUPID!!!!! REMEMBER ALL THE PROMISES YOU MADE AND DO YOUR BEST TO HONOR THEM!!!! Why couldn't you make one simple phone call to say goodnight and talk to her? why did you completely let time slip away. IDIOT!

Tap You Out!

What is it about me that makes me want to smash in a guys face? I am probably the least violent person you'll EVER meet. But certain situations call out my rage and it pisses me off when I can't let it out. Here are a couple of things You may NEVER do on my watch.

1) Get into a woman's face with a balled up fist. If I see that I may just perhaps, lay you out.

2) Be completely disrespectful to a pregnant woman. I.E. Make her cry with your stupid candor, raise your voice in an aggressive tone, make her feel like nobody will want her because of the child, it goes on and on.

3) Be a completely worthless father. If you can't take care of your child(ren), I'll take care of you. Because I was the only one with balls to stand up to my father. So don't for a second think I'll be scared of you.

4) Don't EVER be a manipulative prick. Enough said about that.

5) If you EVER try to cause division between family that I'm close to. I.E Mine or one that took me in like my GF's family, or the Hawes family. Avoid all contact with me. Because if you get this far without me hurting you, You're blessed. If you get this far without me even having a say, then God for some reason, showed you mercy.

Please understand that violence is not something I condone, But I am a lion of the tribe of Judah. I will defend my pride. Not one lion, especially a lioness will be harmed in your cowardly efforts. So if you charge, be ready to fall.